What do I do?

I watched Ad Astra today. It was a nice movie about how instead of looking at the stars and space for answers, we should maybe be looking in.

But that’s not the point of this post. There was a moment in the movie that made me think. Brad Pitt is sending a message to his long lost father and a sentence in the message really stood out to me.

“I’ve dedicated my life to the exploration of space”

Personally, I cannot define what I want to dedicate my life to… This is a problem. I do not want to think of myself as having done nothing of note five years in the future. A job at Stripe is a really amazing thing to have right now, but I’d be really disappointed if it was my life’s work product.

I don’t know what I need from myself right now. I know that Stripe is the biggest learning opportunity I’ve ever had in my life and I need to make the most of it as long as I can / need. However, my MetaBrainz work is the work I’m really proud of. I need to stop procrastinating and start working more on that too. However, most importantly, I need to find out what’ll make me feel proud of my work in life.

So yes, today made me realize that I need to think more about stuff I need to do before I turn complacent. I think this realization was actually pretty important, and I’m thankful that it doesn’t seem to have come too late.